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The Gift
By Cali Bennington

 

A/N: 'The Gift' lyrics are (c) to Seether.

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Hold me now I need to feel relief
Like I never wanted anything
I suppose I'll let this go and find a reason I'll hold on to
I'm so ashamed of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to get by


The rain above poured down in sheets as Cali walked through the seemingly crowdless streets of L.A, shivering from the cold. She could remember the things she'd heard Chester say back in the studio where Mike had confronted him about the affair they were having, and it only made her cry harder than she already was. How could he say that she was only temporary when he had said he loved her? How could he choose Samantha over her?
"Bastard." She spat loudly, grabbing the attention of a man passing by. He stared at her oddly and then continued on his way, mumbling something about psychos.

Turning down a familiar road, Cali sighed and dragged her feet along the wet concrete, pausing in front of one house in particular.

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all


A light was on in a room upstairs and Cali could only guess that Chester was too worried about her to sleep, but that thought quickly vanished when the light flicked off and the street became dark again. Grinding her teeth, Cali stormed towards the house, her body fueled by her dislike for Samantha. Leaning down, she yanked a rock from the muddy ground beneath her, pulling her arm back while she contemplated breaking the window above her.

I can't face myself when I wake up
And look inside a mirror
I'm so ashamed of that thing
I suppose I'll let it go
Until I have something more to say for me
I'm so afraid of defeat
And I'm out of reason to believe in me
I'm out of trying to defy


In her mind, Cali could see herself chucking the rock, stepping back to watch the glass as it shattered from the contact. She pictured Chester throwing open the window to find her standing on his lawn, looking at him while silently letting him know she hated him for this. Then, Samantha would come to the window and drag her husband away, telling him that he needn't bother with such a child. They would laugh at her until she ran as far away from them as possible.

Dropping the rock back to the ground, Cali gave Chester's dark window one last glance and took off running in the other direction. Her lungs burned as she ran as fast as she could, her sobs broken and loud. She hated him so much for all of this, but she couldn't bring herself to admit that she loved him too.

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all


Slowing her pace some as she reached another house she recognized, Cali came to a stop on the corner and stared at it. Rob's truck was parked outside and she knew he had to be home. Jogging up to the front of the house, she rang the doorbell. Once... twice... three times before she heard Rob shout that he was coming. Waiting while the lock clicked and the knob turned, Cali grit her teeth and stared down at her feet.
"Yeah?" He mumbled sleepily before gasping sharply. Cali looked up, her blue eyes filled with pain.
"Can I stay here?" She asked, getting nothing from him but a shocked stare. Her throat tightened and she looked him straight in the eye.
"Please, Rob? I don't know where else to go..."

Hold me now I need to feel complete
Like I matter to the one I need


"Yeah, of course. Come in." He held the door open for her and it took everything Cali had to resist flying into his arms to let him hold her close.

I'm so afraid of the gift you give me
I don't belong here and I'm not well
I'm so ashamed of the lie I'm living
Right on the wrong side of it all


"What happened?" His voice startled her and she brought her eyes back to his, hesitating before opening her mouth to answer.

Now I'm ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of this
Now I'm so ashamed of this
I am so ashamed of me...


"Mike found out."
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End.

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