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Jimmy ‘The Rev’ Sullivan
By CutieMcfoREVer

 


Jimmy `The Rev' Sullivan

It was the 29th of December and it was just like any ordinary in the school holidays. I had gotten up at my usual time, 1pm, and strolled out of bed. I usually just sit in our lounge room and watch something that I want on television. But of course at the time I got up Danielle was already on the television, so I just watched whatever she was watching. Emily wasn't there because she was in Adelaide meeting up with some friends of hers. So it was just me, Danielle and my mum.

It was around about 3:30pm when I decided to go on the computer and check my emails. I went on MySpace and checked out everything I needed to on there and then I went to my actual emails. I saw a new blog post from Avenged Sevenfold, my all time favourite band, and clicked into it. I saw the title of the blog was `Jimmy `The Rev' Sullivan' and the first thought I had was that oh no what's he done now. Because Jimmy was the crazy funny guy in the band and will make anyone laugh.

When the full post came up I read the first lines of the blog which were `It is with great sadness and heavy hearts that we tell you of the passing today of Jimmy “The Rev” Sullivan.' With that one line my heart dropped. My jaw dropped and my eyes immediately started to swell up with tears. As I read on my heart sunk further and further into my chest. I ran into my room and cried my eyes out. I couldn't believe that one of the greatest musicians in my favourite band had died. I texted Emily and told her that he was dead. She texted back feeling sorry for me and that she wished she was with me, to comfort me. My whole family knows how much I adore Avenged Sevenfold. So when someone from that band died they knew that it would have hit me hard.

I was in my room for four days, I didn't eat, I didn't shower I didn't do anything but cry. The only thing that could be heard from the room was my sobbing and my music blaring. The only songs I had on were Avenged Sevenfold - Seize The Day, Avenged Sevenfold - I Won't See You Tonight pt 1, Avenged Sevenfold - Dear God, Saftysuit - Anywhere But Here, Story Of The Year - Silent Murder and Bullet For My Valentine - Say Goodbye [acoustic].

I would fall in and out of sleep because I would just exhaust myself crying so much. My mum would come in everyday and ask me if I was doing okay, give me water and just to check up on me. And I'm kind of glad she did, because for those four days I was mourning I had thought about suicide many times. The pain that I was feeling was too much and I didn't think that I could handle it anymore. My hero and the person I most look up to just died. I didn't feel like doing anything. I was torn and broken.

The four days that I was in my room it didn't seem like four days at all. It seemed like an eternity. Looking back at those days now they all just seem to blur together. On the first day I was crying my boyfriend, at that time, came over to see me. He sat on the edge of the bed and just sat with me, comforting me. I'm not quite sure how long he was there for but he did leave soon after he got there. On the third day after Jimmy died I did get out of bed to make something to eat, but my brother was down to visit and he has to voice his opinion when he feels that it's needed. And as I was making a sandwich he said that he thought it was stupid that I was crying over some guy in a band. And that's when I ran back to my room and cried some more. I didn't get how someone could be so insensitive about his sister's feelings. He could see that it was hurting me but he didn't care.

The one thing that people don't understand is that Jimmy and the rest of Avenged Sevenfold are like a second family to me. All of the Avenged Sevenfold fans think the same as me, but if you're not a fan and part of that family then you just don't get it. That's what my boyfriend didn't understand either. He didn't get that Jimmy meant so much to me, and he didn't understand why I was crying about it. And this one night a couple of weeks after Jimmy died I texted him about how sad I still was, and he said that `he was just some guy in a band' and that I should just move on. He thought that it was stupid that I was crying over someone I didn't know personally. And I understand where he's coming from but he never understood that that never mattered to me, because I was still connected to Jimmy through the music that the band made. I will always think of Jimmy and the rest of Avenged Sevenfold as a family to me. It may sound dumb and stupid to some people, but I couldn't care less about what they thought. And because I knew that the people that I love were so hurt it made me feel that pain too. Zacky, the guitarist of the band, said something along the lines of `The fans are a part of the Avenged Sevenfold family we're going to laugh together and we're going to crying together '. I don't think that's exactly what he said but it was something close to it.

It's been a bit more than 8 months since he's passed away and I still feel some emotion pain. Every day since then I have thought about him, even if it was in a little way or a big way.

Every now and then I cry myself to sleep just to let it out, because I don't want to bottle it up forever. Crying has made it a bit easy to cope with because it lets me express everything that I'm feeling. Another thing that has helped me is drawing and writing. For my major in art I did a big canvas painting in memory of him and it's something that I loved doing and it helped me heal a bit.

I met this guy, Taymen, through Emily a couple of mouths ago and he was a diehard fan just like me. It was easy to talk to him because he felt everything that I felt and he knew exactly what I was going through. We still talk to each other and it's basically only about Avenged Sevenfold and their new album, which was released on July 27th.

Jimmy was one of the people that I looked up to. He was my hero and he was my inspiration to be crazy and out there and not care what people thought about me. From the DVD's that him and his band mates released you could see that he was a blast to be with and that you could never have a dull moment when he was around you. The people that were close to Jimmy said that he would get along with everyone, and he was just one of those people that you could make you smile. Jimmy seemed like a crazy free spirit kind of guy. Everyone that knew him loved him.

I defiantly know that I will never forget him or his crazy self. I think that he will always have a part of me that no one else could ever take away or replace him. To me Avenged Sevenfold is and will always be Matt, Zacky, Brian, Jimmy and Johnny. I could never think of them as just the four of them.

Jimmy died when the band was half way through making their next album. So when he died the band and record came to a stop. They mourned, I mourned and the entire fan base mourned. Jimmy had also said when he was younger he knew two things. One, that he was going to be a great musician and two, that he wasn't going to live past thirty. He did both those things. He died at age twenty-eight and he was one of the greatest musicians that ever walked this earth.

When Matt, Zacky, Brian or Johnny [the rest of Avenged Sevenfold] did an interview they said that when Jimmy died none of them could be alone. They all camped out at each other's houses and told stories about Jimmy. They cried and laughed at all the memories that they had made with him. To the band Jimmy wasn't just their drummer, he was their brother to them. Jimmy and Matt grew up together as kids and have been best friends since. But everyone mourned the same towards him. No one missed him more than someone else, they all loved him equally.

The fan base set up a candlelight memorial service in Huntington Beach, California, where Jimmy was born, for all of the fans to come together and be together in this tough time. The fans held candles and sung some of Avenged Sevenfold's songs in remembrance of him.

A few months down the track Avenged Sevenfold got back into recording because they wanted to put the album out for Jimmy. I'm not quite sure how many songs they had written before he died but I know that the album wasn't complete. Some of the songs on the album are how the band felt when Jimmy died and how they coped with it. It's hard to explain how they sound and what the lyrics are about, because I don't want to say something that's not true or incase I misinterpreted it wrong.

One of the songs on the album that really stands out to me is called `Fiction'. It was a demo copy of the song that Jimmy wrote three days before he died. Jimmy originally called it `Death' but Matt, vocalist of Avenged Sevenfold, decided to change it to suite the song better. I think he called it fiction because Jimmy had the word fiction tattooed down the front of his chest and stomach. When Jimmy passed away the song was still in its demo form and he had only done a demo of his voice for the album. So Matt had to write a bit more on the lyrics and he had to put his mind into thinking like Jimmy's. The first and third verses are written from Jimmy perspective and the second verse is written in Matt's perspective. The chorus was also written and sung by Jimmy. The song is basically Jimmy talking about death and how he wants his friends to move on when he's gone, because he'll be okay where he is. The song was also about Matt trying to find piece in his friends passing. Like I said before it's hard to explain and I just can't find the right words to explain the song. So I put in the song lyrics below and see what you can get from it.

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So this is what I wrote for my English assignment. I only had 90 minutes to write it in so it's a little rough, but I think I got my point across.

I had to hold in tears when writing this. Cause I had to remember what I did on that day and think about everything that I was feeling, and I was just a total mess on that day.

Sorry for any wrong information in there about the album or anything, feel free to correct me if it was wrong. But it's not as if my English teacher will know if it's wrong or not. Haha

Hope you guys liked it! I would love to hear what you thought about it though.

RIP Jimmy `The Rev' Sullivan

-CuiteMcfoREVer

 

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