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This Healing Heart Break.
By Little_miss_Vengeance


**This Healing Heart Break.**

Watching the one you love walk away is one of the hardest things to do and yet here I was, watching Matt walk away. After two amazing years matt was just walking away and as much as I wanted to, I couldn't stop him. I called out after him, begging for him to turn around and come back. I started to sob and staggered forward a step before falling to my knees. Matt finally disappeared from my view as tears blurred my vision and started to fall.

I woke to find my cheeks were wet with tears. It was the dream; it was always the same dream. Well, it was more of a memory really; a memory of that horrible day six months ago when the guy I'd thought I'd be with forever had dropped me for some little tramp. With a sigh I brushed away my tears and climbed out of bed, needing a caffeine fix. I stumbled into the kitchen, heading straight for the fridge, running my fingers through my hair with a sigh as I gazed around my kitchen before pulling a can of monster from the fridge, deep in thought. Matt had walked away from a solid two-year relationship, threw everything away as if it meant nothing at all, as if I meant nothing. I turned as I heared the soft pad of feet on the hard wood of my apartment, a smile played across my lips as my very sleepy looking puppy padded into the kitchen. “Hey Trouble, How's my peppy little puppy this morning?” I asked her as she came and sat at my feet. She gave a little whine and pawed at my bare legs, demanding to be picked up. I put my can down and complied, hugging her to my chest. “You know what baby?” I asked her, Trouble licked my cheek in response. “I've learnt that when a heart breaks, It never breaks even” I told her, feeling a little depressed as shifting her into one arm and picking up my can. “Anyways” I continued, “I was thinking, I'll have my monster and then we'll go for a walk in the park, how does that sound to you baby?” I asked, trouble gave a little bark of agreement before snuggling into my chest. I smiled and headed back to my room, where I dropped her onto my bed and she promptly burrowed under my blankets. I smiled and set my can on the beside table before wandering over to my closet, trying to decide what to wear.

Half an hour later, Trouble and me were walking through the park, my Ipod was playing `Afraid' by yellow card. It seemed so appropriate for how I was feeling today. I glanced around, before I started to softly sing “the only thing you say is, I am afraid right now, I don't want to let you down, and I am the one that cant be saved, the only thing I say, I am afraid right now, what If I cant get out, what if I don't want to be saved, this is me afraid” I sighed, giving trouble a smile when she stopped and sat down at my feet. “Hey Trouble, what's the matter baby?” I asked her, crouching down to pat her. “It's not my singing, is it?” I asked, giving a giggle as Trouble yipped in agreement. She cocked her head, almost as if she was listening to something. I started to ask her what she was listening to, when she ripped the leash from my hand and bolted, heading towards a group of people in the distance. “Trouble stop.” I yelled running after her, worried what she had planned; she didn't deal well with strangers, and usually bit. She zoned in on one guy in particular, and started jumping up at his legs. I skidded to a stop about a foot away as the guy knelt down and let her jump into his arms. I recognized him instantly, and it took only a second for me to recognize the guys with him.

“Hey trouble, what you doing here, brat?” he asked her as she covered him in doggy kisses. “Where's mommy?” he asked, looking around, his gaze coming to rest on me, and the healing break in my heart cracked open once more. “Lori, hey, how's it going?” he asked, taking a step towards me, at the same time I took a step back, shaking my head slightly. Matt and his friends stared at me and my eyes started to burn with tears. Jimmy took Trouble from Matt's arms and walked towards me, making me back up a bit more as a lone tear tumbled down my cheek. “Lori, I wont hurt you” matt said, looking a little shocked by my behavior as jimmy stopped moving towards me. “You already did” I replied softly, another tear following the first as I staggered back a step. My words had obviously struck home by the look on matt's face. “Babe, I never meant to…” he started to say, but I cut him off “Maybe you never meant to, but you did. Two years matt. I'm so glad to know I meant that much to you,” I snapped as Trouble started squirm in jimmy's arms. He put her down and she ran to me, and began to paw at my legs. I picked her up and hugged her tightly to my chest. Matt looked hurt by my words, but I'd didn't care; there was no way he could hurt as much as I did. “C'mon trouble, let's go home,” I told her, turning my back on five shocked faces and walking away.

It was only when I got home that the tears started to fall in earnest. I threw myself face down on my bed and cried, my body shaking with sobs. I don't know how long I cried for but the next thing I knew I was waking up, my throat felt like it had been sandpapered and my eyes were all gritty, And I could hear a banging. At first I thought I was hearing things until I heared someone yell my name. “C'mon Lori, open up, I know your there” the person yelled, the voice sounding vaguely familiar. I wondered who it was, I almost never had visitors. I stumbled to the door and opened it, revealing on of his friends. Brian Hanner jnr, a.k.a Synyster Gates. I tried to slam the door shut but he stopped me, jamming his foot between the doorjamb and door. “Lori, wait a sec, I just want to talk. Please?” he said, I took a couple of steps back from the door and he pushed it open. One look at my tear-stained face and he knew. “Your not over him, are you?” he asked softly, letting himself into my apartment. Tears welled in my eyes once more as I shook my head. It took Brian all of two seconds to reach me and pull me into a hug. “Matt didn't mean to hurt you Lori, and he regretted it just about straight away” Brian told me as I sobbed into his chest. “I can tell you right now, that you and Trouble are the only things he think's about, he's miserable without you” this stopped me mid sob. I pulled away from him slightly and looked at him, unsure whether I'd heared right. “Come to the show tonight, okay? Just give him a chance to explain himself” Brian asked me, pulling an envelope from his back pocket and offering it to me. I hesitated then took it. “Does he know you're here?” I asked, looking up into Brians, very concerned hazel eyes. He shook his head, looking a little guilty. “If I hadn't come, one of the others would have, probably jimmy, we're worried about you and we hate seeing matt so miserable.” He said, he hesitated for a second before speaking “Matt's beating himself up real bad over the way he treated you. You have always been there for him and he just dropped you for a groupie. Everything you said to him today is everything he's been thinking himself. Lori, he still loves you more than anything” I looked up at Brian. “Are you gonna tell him you came?” I asked, getting a shrug. “Maybe. Will you come tonight?” Brian asked, I shrugged and looked at the floor, “Probably” I sighed, as Brian hugged me, and kissed my forehead. “I gotta go, but just so you know, I always though of you as family. I missed you terribly,” Brian told me as he headed for the door and let himself out. I stared at the door for a long time before going to get ready. And it really surprised me how natural it felt.

I was standing dead center at the barrier as the lights dimmed and the opening act came out. I was surprised to find it was one of my favorite bands, A Skylit Drive. A small smile played across my lips as they launched into the opening verse of `the all star diaries'. After that I sang along, forgetting why I was here, until the lights once more dimmed and the roadies started shifting Avenged Sevenfold's gear onto the stage. I easily spotted Jason and Matt Berry, but I didn't recognize the other Roadies. Obviously a lot had changed in the last six months. My thoughts wandered back to what Brian had told me earlier as the intro Video appeared on the large screens either side of the stage. When the screams started and I turned my attention to the stage as Jimmy bounded out and dropped onto the seat behind the drum kit. The screams almost doubled in volume as the rest of Avenged Sevenfold wandered out onto the stage. Synysters gaze sweeping the crowd until he found me. He then nudged Johnny and nodded in my direction. Johnny smiled when he spotted me, and I couldn't help smiling back. As much as I tried to tell myself I hadn't, it was then I realized exactly how much I had missed the guys of A7X.

It was about mid show that Matt stopped mucking around and spoke seriously “ Now, there's a girl in the crowd tonight, who I know I hurt very badly with the way I treated her, and I just want her to know that she is the most amazing person I've ever met, and without her, I probably wouldn't be where I am today. Lori babe, if you're in the crowd tonight, please, please, please come and find me after the show. I want to make things right” I could feel my eye's well with tears at his words, but matt wasn't finished. “This song has always been her favorite, so I want to dedicate this song to Lori. This is `The Beast and the Harlot'” he said as Jimmy started to play the opening beat.

After the show, I thought about going and talking to matt, but seeing him with a bunch of fan girls hurt me too much and I started to leave. I was almost out the door when someone snagged my arm. I turned and found myself staring into the bright green eyes of Zacky Vengeance. I sighed “Zacky, let me go, I want to go home” I said softly but Zacky shook his head. “Nuh-uh, you're not going anywhere til you talk to Matt.” He told me as he started dragging me towards the doors leading backstage. We were halfway there when Matt noticed us and a look of anger clouded his face when he saw Zack man-handling me, but he quickly plastered a fake smile on his face for a photo, then, I assumed he muttered an excuse and started to follow as Zacky dragged me through the door. I realized what he was intending to do. They wanted to corner me so I couldn't run off. I dug my heels in, trying to stop him pulling me along “No” I snapped trying to pull my wrist from Zacky's grasp, my anger starting to boil, but his grip was like a vice. Zack turned to me with a frustrated look on his face “Lori chill, we just want to talk to you.” He growled, clearly frustrated with my lack of compliance. A second later the door leading out into the main foyer slammed open. “Let her go Vengeance” I heared matt growl and Zacky dropped my hand as if burned, making me stumble back with the sudden lack of resistance. I smirked at Zackys reaction. No one in their right mind messed with matt when he was pissed, well, except me, but I have never been considered in my right mind.

Zacky backed up a couple of steps as Jimmy and Brian appeared. Brian grinned at me “You came.” He sounded happy and he gave me a happy little grin, which promptly disappeared when he saw the look on Matt's face. Jimmy gave me a hesitant smile, unsure of how I'd react. “Hey Jimmy James” I said, smiling back. He held out his arms for a hug, still hesitant. I didn't even think as I jumped into his arms for a hug. Everything about this moment felt so right, like a missing piece of me was suddenly back where it belonged. Jimmy just about crushed me in his enthusiastic hug. “Sorry bout earlier” I whispered in his ear. He put me down and gave me a lopsided grin that said it was ok. Zacky watched me a little cautiously, obviously aware that matt would thump him if he upset me. I rolled my eyes and held my arms open for a hug. He just about crushed me in a bear hug, muttering, “Missed you” in my ear. I smiled as Johnny appeared and bounded over to me for a hug. “Hey Johnny.” I managed to get out before he swung me off my feet in his enthusiastic greeting. When he put me down, his eyes were sparkling with mischief and amusement. “Your still short.” He told me. I laughed. “I'm not the only one” I shot back, playfully thumping him in the arm, feeling happy for the first time in six months. Brian cleared his throat “Um, guys, let's go sign stuff for the fans.” The other three looked ready to argue, but after one look at Matt, they filed through the door to the main foyer.

I could sense Matt still behind me. With a sigh I walked towards Avenged Sevenfold's Dressing room, hearing Matt follow me, still not speaking. I stumbled over to one of the couches in the dressing room and sat down. It was then I noticed Matt had stopped in the Doorway. “What?” I asked, maybe a little sharper than I intended. Matt flinched and slowly moved to sit on the couch opposite me. “Lori, Is there anyway I can do make it up to you?” he asked me softly, and I could hear the pain and suffering in his voice. “What do you think matt? You walked away. You dumped me for some little blonde groupie. The only reason she was interested was because you're a rockstar. Two years, Matthew, and you threw it away. Just tell me, was it worth it?” I demanded, hot tears starting to fall down my cheeks, my voice becoming tear choked. Matt shook his head, half getting up, as if to come and comfort me. “No, I realized almost straight away, but my pride wouldn't let me come and beg you to take me back. And by the time I realized how bad I fucked up, I was already too far away and couldn't come back. I've come to realize that I'm nothing without you Lori. Please forgive me, I know I don't deserve it, but I promise it wont happen again. I missed you so bad. Life isn't worth it without you” I couldn't believe what I was hearing; looking up I saw Matt had tears in his eyes. “Matt, do you have any idea how much it destroyed me to watch you walk away. I don't think I have it in me to survive if it does happen again, I'm…. I'm not sure it's worth it. My hearts just started to heal.” I whispered, pulling my legs up and wrapping my arms around them. Matt looked devastated by my words. “Lori, baby I'm so so sorry, I…” I cut him of as his tears started to fall. “How do I know it won't happen again, I barely survived the first time. Matt, I gave you my heart, and you broke it. I gave you everything I had and you threw it back in my face. I have nothing left.” I sobbed, burying my face in my knees.

A minute later I felt Matt wrap his arms around me. “I swear that I wont do it ever again. You're still my everything. I can't think of anything but you and Trouble. All the memories of us, they just play constantly in my head. Like the day we got Trouble. Our little runt. Lori, I want to make more memories like that. Whatever it takes, I'll make it up to you, I swear. If you want me to quit the band, I will, just please take me back” I looked up at him, feeling shocked, the band had always been his main focus. He gently brushed away my tears before asking, “What do I have to do?”. I bit my lip, thinking. Matt was everything I'd ever wanted, I didn't care that he was a rockstar, I saw beneath that, I knew the real matt, and it was the real matt that I fell in love with, that I was still in love with. “Ok” I said softly as I climbed into his lap and snuggled into him. He looked confused. “OK?” he asked me, a little tentivly. “Ok, I'll give you another chance” I whispered in his ear as the rest of his band appeared in the doorway. The grin that split his face made me realize that I'd made the right choice. “So, is it all good?” Brian asked as the four of them hesitated in the doorway. I smiled and nodded. This is exactly where I wanted to be. It's true what they say, what doesn't kill you makes you stronger.


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