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In Loving Memory
By Syntress17

 


A/N Ok so I started this last Tuesday and finished it on Friday but I've been away from a computer with internet all weekend. I hope you all like it, it is sad and you may need tissues. I teared up while writing it. This is slash but it's past slash and only mentioned. The song used is In Loving Memory by Alter Bridge. Please if you read leave a review. Thanks.

*Tiffany*

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Thanks for all you've done
I've missed you for so long
I can't believe you're gone
You still live in me
I feel you in the wind
You guide me constantly

It's been twenty nine days since you left this earth, since you left me. I still can't quite grasp the fact that you're gone, that you're not coming back. It just doesn't seem plausible that you out of all of us are the one that's gone. I swear I can feel you in the wind as I sit out back on the porch smoking a cigarette and watching the sunset. I know that you're still here, that you're guiding me in everything I do; even now.

I'm so thankful for everything you've done; done for me, the guys, the fans, everyone. You mean the world to me and it hurts when I think about the fact that you won't be coming home tonight, that you won't be coming home ever again. I've missed you for what feels to me like years but in actuality it's only been twenty nine days. I don't think I'll ever fully get over losing you, fully grasp that you're gone.


I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
And ill come home and I miss your face so
Smiling down on me
I close my eyes to see

Before December 28th of 2009 I never knew what it was exactly to be alone. To not have the person you love and care about the most. You were always there for me, had been for so many years. You were always there waiting for me whenever I needed you. You were with me through it all. Through middle school, then high school, the beginning of Avenged, through Pinkly Smooth. It was always you; you were always the one who was there for me right by my side through everything. No matter what happened or what kind of mess I'd get myself into you'd be there for me helping me get out of it.

Now when I come home from spending the day at one of the guys' houses' I feel empty and alone. The house is so silent and there's no life in it save for myself and Pinkly. I miss seeing your face everyday, smiling down at me with love and happiness shining bright in your eyes. I go into our room and lie down on the bed clutching your pillow to my chest tightly. I close my eyes and breathe in your sent and I see you. I do this each night just to see you.


And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

I know this will probably seem clich? but I know that you're apart of me. I keep your with me in my heart and I'm never going to let you go. I'll forever hold onto you. I play your song each night; it's the one thing that sets me free. I sing it when I feel I can't hold on any longer; to prove to myself that I can hold on that I need to hold on. I know you wouldn't want me dying and leaving Matt, Zacky, and Johnny behind. I know you want me to move on and continue living my life to the fullest. I swear to you Jimmy that I will I just need a little more time to heal. I need more time to grieve for you.

I carry the things that remind me of you
In loving memory of
The one that was so true
Your were as kind as you could be
And even though you're gone
You still mean the world to me

I still have the things that remind me of you. I carry a picture of us together with me wherever I go. I keep your drumsticks close beside the bed; they're the one thing you loved as much if not more than me. I keep them in loving memory of you and I'll never get rid of them or any of the things I still have that remind me of you. Things like your shirts or your cross necklace that you'd always wear. I talked to the guys about that debating whether we wanted to burry you with it or if I'd keep it. We decided that I should keep it and I'm glad we did. I wear it every day now; it's my constant reminder of you.

I don't know why it was your time to go, I probably never will. God Jimmy you were one of the kindest people I knew. You gave everyone your love and you were as kind as you could be to everyone you met and knew. Even though you may be gone you're still my world. You still mean the world to me that will never change. Nothing anyone can do or try to do will ever change that. You will always be my world Jimmy, always. I love you so damn much and it's just so hard trying to move on and continue living without you here.


I've never knew what it was to be alone, no
Cause you were always there for me
You were always there waiting
But now I come home and it's not the same, no
It feels empty and alone
I can't believe you're gone


And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me


I'm glad he set you free from sorrow
I'll still love you more tomorrow
And you will be here with me still

I know you were suffering in this world. We couldn't show anyone who we really were, we couldn't show them we were together. You hated it so much, you didn't understand why people had issues with it. The only people we ever told were our band members and the girls. You wanted to badly to tell everyone to let the world know about us. It was causing you to suffer and I hated it, hated seeing you so upset. I'll always love you though Jimmy. Always. Fuck I'll probably love you more tomorrow than I do today. I know you're still here with me and always will be but it still hurts so much.


And what you did you did with feeling
And You always found the meaning
And you always will
And you always will
And you always will

You did everything with so much feeling. You poured your heart out into everything you did and I loved that about you. You always found the meaning in everything. I know you always will even though you're gone. You'll always be the most amazing person and I'll forever love that about you. You don't know how much your leaving has hurt me. I love you Jimmy, so much always will. I know I've said this like a thousand times but it's true. I don't know what to do now that you're gone. I don't know if I'll ever be able to move on.”

I close my eyes standing up from the chair I've been sitting in on the porch. I take one final drag on my cigarette then stomp it out. I go inside the house I use to share with Jimmy and go up to my room. I go outside every night to talk to him. I strip down to my boxers and curl up in bed clutching Jimmy's pillow tightly to my chest. I close my eyes and inhale the lingering scent of him on the pillow. Tears come to my eyes and fall down my cheeks as I slowly fall asleep thinking about Jimmy.


Ooo's

And I know, you're a part of me
And it's your song that sets me free
I sing it while I feel I can't hold on
I sing tonight cause it comforts me

 

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