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A broken heart that never quiet healed back up.
By Spaztastic Pansy

 

Authors note:
Well hello fellow readers and writers! I'm back with a new one shot to start off the new year and to get myself back into the whole writing. I hope you all enjoy it.

I do not own the guys from mcr but the ideas are my own.


A broken heart that never quiet healed back up.

It's been three months since Lindsey left me a whole two years of us being together then breaking up the on and off. She didn't know what she wanted she couldn't make up her mind, going back to work and living so far apart we never got the chance to see one another. Then soon it got to the point where we couldn't even talk on the phone for weeks maybe even months apart. So I'm vulnerable.

Here I am hating my life and crying over her. Yes I cry over her, I was completely in love with the girl of my dreams and she just broke my heart into millions of pieces and the worst part is she's pregnant with another guys kid. Yes I will admit we were on a break and she got drunk. No it wasn't a good excuse, cause if I was able to keep it in my pants then she could of too but she obviously didn't care that much about us and what we once were.

Shaking my head from these thoughts I needed to talk to someone, someone who's always there for me and will always be there. Frank. I know he's been in love with me ever since Lindsey and I got together two years to this day and I know how much it hurt him to hear about her and me talk about her all the time when all he wanted was for me to speak to him in that manner. Dialing his number I waited to hear his voice the voice of reason. After us getting into a fight last valentines day cause he found out me and Linz were still together we just didn't talk till now and I have to say for a while I had feeling for him. Cause he he's amazing and sweet and he cares for me. And he would do anything for me…

``hello?'' I heard his voice

``hey frank! Long time no talk I was just thinking about you and decided to chat.'' I said blushing on this end

``well no shit! I'm amazing and you know you love me'' he joked in the same manner as he always did.

``I do… Frank I need to talk to you about something'' I started not knowing where to go with this. ``Frank will you go out with me?'' I asked quickly. Hearing the silence on the other end I started to feel sick to my stomach of him saying no. what am I to do, why am I such a fool.

``yes.. Gerard I've only been waiting for this moment for two years so yes ill go out with you!'' he said happily. I could tell he was really happy by this and I couldn't help but smile as well. I was so glad to make him happy after all the heart ach I put him through, Lindsey was now in my past, yes I still miss her but frank is now in my heart.

Well… that's how I was feeling two months ago. Here I sit with Frank calling me baby and various pet names, he's very clingy always needing to hold my hand no matter what and pouts when I cant talk to him on the phone or when I say something that's not to his liking. It's kind of annoying. I guess where I'm getting at is the fact that I like Frank.. I really do. But I'm not sure if this relationship is going to work out. Were both subs and too much alike I need someone who is somewhat different and not just like me. This is hard for me cause I don't want to hurt him. He means so much to me but I cant feel anything not a spark or a hint of a want for him, even when we kissed for the first time I felt nothing. And this is killing me I don't want to hurt him like time and time again, but I'm not happy I am depressed I just don't wanna hurt him I can't! so I'm pushing myself to fall for him and to be happy around him but it's just too hard. I just don't know anymore. This is killing me. So here I am with a torn heart from hurting an amazingly sweet guy who cares so much about me. I guess I needed more time to heal, I needed more time to get over Lindsey but I just don't know what to say or how to say it. I'm still upset over her and I still miss her and I think I jumped to quickly to be with someone else.

Gerard you fuck up. No matter what your going to be the bad guy or still depressed. If I tell Frank I got into this too quickly he'll be so upset and will hate me but if I stay in this then ill be depressed and have trouble being in this and end up becoming distant then Frank will get worried. So for now I'm going to stare at this drink in my hand and drown my sorrows, and the pain till I feel numb inside. Lifting the cold glass up to my dry lips I tilt my head back and downed what was left in the glass tears rolling down his warm pink cheeks, then poured himself another glass. I lifted it up in the air ``another to you, you fuck up'' I said with a small laugh taking another sip of my depressant. Till it came to the time that I passed out in my room living in my dreams of my happiness or what I wish were my happy thoughts and the happy life I wanted to have.

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Well this was just to get me back into writing I hope you liked it. It's nothing amazing, well at least that's what I think.
If you read it thank you =]

 

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