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Dear God
By AvengedExpectations

 


A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

While I recall all the words you spoke to me

Can't help but wish that I was there

Back where I'd love to be, oh yeah

It was my daughter's birthday today. I celebrate it in utter silence, my only friends the vodka on the table and the couch I'm sitting on.

My mind flows back to all my memories with her. I didn't want to see them. The vodka wasn't working for the reason I needed it. I wanted the alcohol to drown the memories, pound them out of my head so I could be happy. It just wouldn't work that way.

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

But I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again

A flashback coursed through my brain as a shiver accompanied it.

-~-

“Daddy!” she yelled after her first day of school, barreling at me off the bus.

I held my arms out for her and caught her, grunting a `whoa!' and spinning her around.

“How was school?” I grinned, carrying her into the house and letting her down as the bus drove away.

“I love it!” she replied enthusiastically, but added as an afterthought, “but I love you too.”

I grinned. “I love you too baby girl.”

-~-

There's nothing here for me on this barren road

There's no one here while the city sleeps

and all the shops are closed

Can't help but think of the times I've had with you

Pictures and some memories will have to help me through, oh yeah

I groaned as the room spun, covering my face with my hand and shutting my eyes. There was no way I wanted to see that moment.

My phone vibrated on the table and I just glared at it. Why must it be so consistently annoying? I know people call and people text, telling me that I have to come out of my shell. I don't care. It just couldn't be the same. Not without my baby girl around.

Another flash back coursed through me and I groaned, watching it.

-~-

I sat on the porch and waited for her to come home off the bus, surprised when it went on past my house without stopping.

`She must have something after school, I'll go pick her up,' I thought to myself and went back in to get my car keys.

Driving to the school, I tried not to panic. She was there, of course. She could've gotten in trouble, or missed the bus or something.

I pulled into the parking lot and shut the car off, getting out. Quickly, I walked into the building.

“Hello, can I help you?” the receptionist asked.

“My daughter didn't come home from school so I assumed she was here,” I explained.

She thought about it for a moment. “There were no after school programs today, and all the children are gone for the day.”

I panicked.

-~-

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need that person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again

I generously heaved my stomach contents onto the floor, violently sick for a few moments.

Wiping the vile from my mouth, I crawled back up onto the couch and drank another shot, desperately wanting the flashbacks to go away and leave me alone.

Nonetheless, a groan coursed through me as another one came.

-~-

7 year old girl goes missing, family in shock,” the news read. I quickly shut it off. I didn't want to hear about it again.

I knew she was out there. She had to be. The news was wrong, she wasn't missing.

Someone knew where she was.

Who, I didn't know. I went out almost every day and cruised the streets, driving to nearby towns and looking for her. Sometimes I'd even call out her name desperately.

-~-

Some search, never finding a way

Before long, they waste away

I found you, something told me to stay

I gave in, to selfish ways

And how I miss someone to hold

when hope begins to fade...

The bitter loneliness crept into my heart and stayed there with that flashback. It was almost going in chronological order. I begged and pleaded to no one that the next one wouldn't come. I knew what happened next.

But, like all bad news, it came rushing at me head on.

-~-

“Hello?” I groaned, picking up the house phone and putting it to my ear.

“Someone found her,” the voice said. I sat up.

“Oh god, is she okay? Is she hurt?” I asked, getting out of bed and sparing a glance at the clock.

It read 2:46AM. I pulled my jeans on and left my bedroom.

“I'm so sorry,” the man said. I stopped dead.

“What? She's hurt isn't she?” I asked, walking faster down the hall.

“Someone found her while walking through the forest at night with their friends. She was killed a few weeks ago.”

I stopped. No, he didn't say that.

It just wouldn't register.

“Very funny, but I want to see my daughter,” I told him casually, trying not to get angry. He was keeping me from her when she'd been gone for weeks!

“Sir, I'm sorry. You can come to the hospital morgue to see her. I truly am sorry.”

He hung up and I dropped the phone.

No

-~-

A lonely road, crossed another cold state line

Miles away from those I love purpose hard to find

Dear God the only thing I ask of you is

to hold her when I'm not around,

when I'm much too far away

We all need the person who can be true to you

I left her when I found her

And now I wish I'd stayed

'Cause I'm lonely and I'm tired

I'm missing you again oh no

Once again

-~-

Imagine this as any guy, doesn't matter to me. I was thinking Matt, actually. Weird.

Anyway, sorry I haven't written. I've been busy with a lot of other things, and just couldn't find any muse. I got inspiration for this just now. I'm in a bad mood.

My best friend is supposedly quitting furcadia. I don't want him to, but he is. I think, I dunno. He might just be emoing, but it's making me sad too.

It'll be okay though. Anyway, I promise you I'll finish my other stories, I just don't have the inspiration for it right now.

Love, Mallory

 

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