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Emotionless
By SteffiSevenfold

 

"What're you thinking about?"
I felt his fingers tighten around mine.
"My dad."
That's all I can seem to think about lately.
My dad. My father. My blood.
"I wrote a letter to him that I never sent. I don't know where he lives to send it."
"May I see it?"
I shrugged and got off the bed, slipping from Brian's loving grip and grabbing my journal.
I plopped back down on the bed and handed it to him.
He read aloud, my own words robbing my mind of everything.
"Hey dad,
I'm writing to you not to tell you that I still hate you, just to ask you how you feel and how we fell apart.
How this fell apart.
Are you happy out there, in this great wide world?
Do you think about your sons?
Do you miss your little girl?
When you lay your head down, how do you sleep at night?
Do you even wonder if we're alright?
But we're alright.
It's been a long hard road without you by my side.
Why wern't you there all the nights that we cried?
You broke my mother's heart, you broke your children for life.
It's not okay, but we're alright.
I remember the days you were a hero in my eyes, but those are just a long lost memory of mine.
I've spent so many years learning how to survive.
Now I'm writing just to let you know that I'm still alive.
The days I've spent so cold, so hungry.
We're full of hate, I was so angry.
The scars run deep inside this tattooed body.
There's things I'll take to my grave.
But I'm okay.
Sometimes I forget and this time I'll admit that I miss you.
Hey dad."
He seemed speechless.
A few minutes went by before I could speak properly.
"Brian?"
He looked at me, his eyes sympathetic.
"God, Johnny. That's. .really deep."
I shrugged and he closed my journal, handing it to me.
I got up again and placed my book where I got it from.
"You really do miss him, don't you?"
I shrugged again. "Well, yeah. He's my dad, yanno? I can't help but miss him. I wonder alot what it'd be like if he didn't leave. Maybe we'd be different. Be happier."
A shudder shook my body, shook the happy thought from my head.
I climbed back onto my bed and curled up under Brian's arm, snuggling against his chest and side.
"I love you, Johnny."
I was hypnotized by the rise and fall of his chest. I looked up, my eyes catching his and smiled.
"I love you, too, Brian."
He pulled my chin up and pressed his lips firmly against mine.
I do love this boy. I love him with my whole heart.



The letter is not mine.
They're lyrics from Good Charlotte's "Emotionless".
Sad lyrics they are]:
Listen to the song[: It's addicting.
steffiFUCKINGsevenfold
P.S: Happy New Years[:

 

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