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Bring me back to Bren.
By ForgetYesterdayX

 

Bring me back(9:27:26 PM): when your done with the phone I need to talk to you


Auto Response from Brenmonster (9:27:27 PM): phonee <33


Brenmonster (9:45:40 PM): what's wrong.?
Brenmonster returned at 9:45:46 PM.
Brenmonster (9:47:14 PM): sunshineeeee
Bring me Back (9:47:28 PM): sunshine?
Brenmonster (9:47:51 PM): haha what do you need to talk about.?
Bring me Back (9:48:53 PM): stuff
Brenmonster (9:49:19 PM): well start, what's wrong number one.?
Bring me Back (9:49:24 PM): a lot
Brenmonster (9:49:33 PM): What's the worst
Bring me Back (9:50:35 PM): well not sure exactly
Brenmonster (9:50:53 PM): who.?
Brenmonster (9:51:39 PM): or, how did it start.?
Bring me Back (9:52:54 PM): well it started when I was born then it went all down hill from there
Bring me Back (9:53:03 PM): haha no just kidding I movie quoted
Brenmonster(9:53:16 PM): hahahah now really Ryan??
Bring me Back (9:54:27 PM): it started about say, a month ago
Brenmonster (9:54:39 PM): mhmm
Brenmonster (9:55:36 PM): go on
Bring me Back (9:55:47 PM): I don't know how to, words are escaping me
Brenmonster(9:56:48 PM): well I need a who.
Bring me Back (9:58:13 PM): a who would help, yeah
Brenmonster(9:58:31 PM): so who.?
Bring me Back (9:59:41 PM): its anonymous right now(so you should know who)
Brenmonster (10:01:26 PM): well what about this anonymous person pops into your mind right now
Bring me Back (10:05:14 PM): how much they bother the fuck out of me but at same time make, feel so vulnerable and pathetic
Brenmonster (10:05:40 PM): well why do they bother the fuck out of you.?
Bring me Back (10:05:58 PM): cause I never understand what they are thinking
Brenmonster (10:07:34 PM): and now why the vunderable and pathetic part.?
Brenmonster(10:08:02 PM): **vunerable
Brenmonster (10:08:09 PM): **vulnerable
Bring me Back (10:08:37 PM): Nice spelling. Causes at times they make me discover everything on how I fucked up royally.
Brenmonster (10:09:13 PM): and how do they do that.?
Bring me Back (10:10:31 PM): by not even realizing they are, its these stupid little things I usually can make go unnoticed until later when I think about it hard enough
Brenmonster (10:10:55 PM): but HOW do they do it.?
Bring me Back (10:11:30 PM): by being them, like I stated they can do something that could mean nothing but makes me realize how much I fucked a whole lot up
Brenmonster (10:12:32 PM): and you said you can never tell what they're thinking, what do you wonder about their thoughts.?
Bring me Back (10:13:52 PM): not so much their thoughts its more of what they want, I mean I know directly what they went, it's the undercurrent
Brenmonster (10:14:46 PM): can we give the person a name yet.?
Bring me Back(10:15:55 PM): no cause if I do I wont talk anymore and words wont come
Brenmonster (10:16:50 PM): I get that much
Brenmonster (10:17:01 PM): what do you feel towards this person
Bring me Back (10:17:29 PM): mulitple of emotiond
Bring me Back (10:17:32 PM): emotions*
Brenmonster (10:18:09 PM): name a few
Bring me Back(10:18:53 PM): I'm hurt, jealous, confused
Brenmonster (10:19:52 PM): is that all
Bring me Back (10:20:02 PM): no you said name a few not all
Brenmonster (10:20:13 PM): name 7
Brenmonster(10:20:18 PM): you got 3
Brenmonster (10:22:37 PM): 4 moree
Bring me Back (10:22:39 PM): who said theres 7
Brenmonster(10:22:54 PM): if theres not you need the rest of them now dont you.?
Bring me Back (10:25:06 PM): dont know
Bring me Back (10:25:17 PM): I don't have words for the rest of the emotions
Brenmonster (10:25:38 PM): alright. well rant about something
Brenmonster (10:25:44 PM): anything about them,
Brenmonster (10:25:49 PM): good and bad
Bring me Back (10:25:55 PM): I just wish they went away
Brenmonster (10:26:04 PM): why.?
Bring me Back (10:27:50 PM): because there stupid to have
Brenmonster (10:28:04 PM): how so.?
Bring me Back( 10:28:10 PM): ha I just know
Brenmonster (10:28:53 PM): tell me more
Bring me Back (10:29:37 PM): I just know attempts and thoughts are futile
Brenmonster (10:29:58 PM): attempts and thoughts aboutt....
Brenmonster (10:30:01 PM): come on Ryy
Bring me Back (10:31:13 PM): just about anything, some day you just know when everyone, someone, is going ahead and your left behind, because you can't throw the past away
Brenmonster (10:31:42 PM): mmm. I'm trying to get itt
Bring me Back(10:34:03 PM): and thats the downfall of everything, when you know any attempts, any thoughts are left with unsaid words and broken empty smiles
Brenmonster (10:35:41 PM): touching.
Bring me Back (10:35:48 PM): I try
Brenmonster (10:36:07 PM): you succeed.
Bring me Back (10:36:13 PM): rearly
Brenmonster (10:36:27 PM): how would you know.?
Bring me Back(10:36:33 PM): inner feelings
Brenmonster (10:42:27 PM): finee
Brenmonster(10:42:36 PM): what would you say to this person.?
Brenmonster (10:42:47 PM): say it as, if you're talking to them
Bring me Back(10:43:16 PM): nothing is wrong and I'm perfectly fine
Brenmonster (10:44:01 PM): everything you wouldn't say
Brenmonster (10:44:48 PM): normally
Bring me Back(10:47:53 PM): Everything that gets written down on a piece of paper for my eyes to see where nothing is shot down?
Brenmonster (10:48:17 PM): now what do you mean by shot down.?
Bring me Back(10:50:12 PM): when you write words you try and write words with meaning and thought behind, well once you let those words out and then the meaning is useless, why write words?
Brenmonster (10:50:50 PM): but when you write you shouldn't be writing words
Bring me Back (10:52:55 PM): What should I be writing?
Bring me Back(10:52:56 PM): brb
Brenmonster (10:53:01 PM): okay
Bring me Back (11:02:49 PM): back
Brenmonster (11:03:19 PM): do you know who the s/n" fabled lambs" is.?
Bring me Back (11:04:32 PM): no
Brenmonster (11:05:03 PM): they're mean
Bring me Back(11:06:12 PM): I'm sorry to hear that
Bring me Back(11:09:07 PM): as to the conversation why should I not be writing words
Brenmonster (11:09:51 PM): they're not just words
Bring me Back (11:11:20 PM): then what are they?
Brenmonster (11:11:37 PM): nothing I lost my train of thought anyway
Bring me Back (11:13:07 PM): fine
Brenmonster (11:13:22 PM): did you truth box me.?
Bring me Back (11:13:37 PM): not that I recall
Brenmonster(11:13:47 PM): odd
Brenmonster (11:16:00 PM): now, anything else you wanna talk about.?
Bring me Back(11:17:55 PM): it all kind of turned to shit anyway so, why bother
Brenmonster (11:18:16 PM): I'm just trying to understand what you're talking about
Brenmonster (11:18:47 PM): you didn't exactly speak in direct terms
Bring me Back (11:19:07 PM): when have I ever, I speak in circles
Brenmonster (11:20:05 PM): it's worse then usual
Bring me Back(11:20:45 PM): well what have you been able to understand
Brenmonster (11:21:02 PM): this time, barely.
Bring me Back (11:22:32 PM): words are meaningless
Brenmonster (11:24:02 PM): but feelings aren't
Bring me Back (11:24:37 PM): feelings aren't worth it
Brenmonster (11:24:53 PM): they can be if you put them to the right use
Bring me Back(11:25:08 PM): obviously I've learned and regretted it.
Brenmonster (11:25:37 PM): you learn from what you regret
Bring me Back (11:27:55 PM): and I don't want to learn
Brenmonster (11:28:19 PM): you don't seem to want to do anything if you think about it
Bring me Back (11:29:45 PM): I know not to do anything about...
Brenmonster (11:29:58 PM): what you want.?
Bring me Back (11:30:09 PM): yes
Brenmonster (11:30:18 PM): now tell me what do you want.?
Bring me Back(11:32:03 PM): I've been told if I tell, its stupid and not worth getting hurt
Brenmonster (11:32:24 PM): who told you that.?
Bring me Back (11:32:34 PM): a best friend
Brenmonster (11:33:28 PM): I think you should just say what you want. Because sometimes when its out in the open, you'll get it. even if its not exactly what you expected
Brenmonster went away at 11:35:42 PM.
Bring me Back (11:36:38 PM): I fucking know for a fact I will not get it, I know I won't get it like I know my love for music. I.Will.Not.Get.It.


Auto Response from Brenmonster (11:36:38 PM): ---youtakemybreathaway--- <9/21/08> <WB> ---iloveyou--- <33


Brenmonster (11:37:18 PM): then why not say it.?
Bring me Back (11:37:30 PM): Why bear the pain anymore?
Brenmonster(11:37:46 PM): doesn't answer my question really
Bring me Back(11:38:38 PM): I don't want to suffer anymore then I already am
Brenmonster (11:39:53 PM): who says it would even make a difference if you say it.?
Bring me Back(11:40:13 PM): I say, cause once you say things out in the open reality hits
Brenmonster (11:41:08 PM): maybe, maybe not
Brenmonster (11:41:34 PM): but, you're not telling me anything and I kind of want to go to bed. Im sorry I couldn't help you
Bring me Back(11:42:12 PM): You don't read through lines! It so fucking obvious that its annoying, I only wish I could do what you just did now
Brenmonster (11:42:32 PM): I get it
Brenmonster (11:42:37 PM): I just wanted you to say it
Brenmonster (11:43:05 PM): because words aren't worthless when you mean them. The way you just did it, was.


Auto Response from Bring me Back(11:43:05 PM): This is not the movies, and you wont run to me and tell me everything was a big lie and I was here for you, this is reality and it hurts.


Brenmonster (11:44:23 PM): but I guess Im going to bed
Brenmonster (11:44:29 PM): unless you have something to say
Bring me Back(11:45:07 PM): since it's obvious you know what I meant and you know how worthless any attempts would be, why should I bother? I rather not have reality slap me in the face
Bring me Back(11:45:15 PM): I rather go cry in my fucking break room at work
Brenmonster (11:45:37 PM): don't tell me you cried in your break room at work
Bring me Back(11:45:44 PM): fine I wont
Brenmonster (11:45:49 PM): no really
Brenmonster (11:45:51 PM): did you
Bring me Back(11:46:14 PM): yes I fucking did you left I threw my papers at Jon and told him I needed my 15 and cried
Brenmonster (11:48:06 PM): now just. Ryan. Why would you do a silly thing like that?
Bring me Bac(11:49:40 PM): because it felt like a fucking good time
Brenmonster (11:50:02 PM): loose all sarcasm for 10 minutes
Bring me Back(11:50:12 PM): fine
Brenmonster (11:50:39 PM): what's the real, flat out explanation why you cried
Bring me Back(11:50:59 PM): jealousy
Brenmonster (11:53:56 PM): Do you still...
Bring me Back(11:55:36 PM): I didn't for a while
Brenmonster (11:55:46 PM): no not that
Bring me Back(11:56:10 PM): say it, if were avoiding sarcasm for 10 minutes then lets avoid beating around the bush as well
Brenmonster(11:59:43 PM): Do you still somewhat love me.?
Bring me Back (12:01:43 AM): breaking down every wall I ever have/has; yes
Brenmonster (12:01:58 AM): mmm.
Brenmonster (12:04:18 AM): I kind of knew
Bring me Back (12:05:41 AM): its not that hard to figure it out
Brenmonster (12:06:02 AM): I couldn't reply to you even if I wanted to
Bring me Back(12:06:53 AM): I don't want you to anyway
Bring me Back(12:06:59 AM): as I say why have reality slap me harder?
Brenmonster (12:07:16 AM): it would be a weird slap
Bring me Back (12:07:29 AM): I don't see how but sure
Brenmonster (12:09:17 AM): maybe you'll know someday
Brenmonster (12:09:34 AM): but I am going to bed this time
Brenmonster (12:09:43 AM): Im sorry for everything
Brenmonster (12:09:43 AM): goodnight Ryan
Bring me Back (12:10:08 AM): I know im not stupid I rather just sit here and pretend
Brenmonster (12:12:31 AM): listen. I love you. But I could never love the you who loves me. I love the you who forgets about who I am and can have a normal conversation. I love the you I can act like an asshole with and I love the you from over a year ago. but saying Im IN love wouldn't mean a thing to me anymore


Auto Response from Bring me Back (12:12:41 AM): This is not the movies, and you won't run to me and tell me everything was a big lie and I was here for you, this is reality and it hurts.


Brenmonster(12:13:09 AM): and sometimes. those feelings work out
Brenmonster (12:13:58 AM): but Im sleeping now
Brenmonster(12:14:01 AM): goodnight
Brenmonster signed off at 12:14:06 AM.
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A/N Shitty night I had. If you can figure out which POV was me, I'll feature you in the next chapter to Someone help...

OH and any questions on the background story that led to this, please feel free to ask me.

 

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