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Down and to the left
By Jesica

 


A/N this actually came to me while watching project runway and BTW Blaine looked good in Daniel's dress if you watched it. Hope you enjoy. The lyrics are Jamie all over by Mayday Parade. Read.Relish.Review :]

We moved to the East coast cause I begged and pleaded, you just shook your head yes. I smiled widely as my pout had one you over. You went to get the map and I watched as you bent over to grab it you had a nice ass, I smirked. Then you came back your voice like a melody you asked where and I pointed to Georgia at random.
You laughed slightly and that's where we moved. Then you convinced me to move back to the west coast, I smirked I'd go anywhere you wanted to go as long as I had you by my side. We ended up moving to the outer part of the Sunset district over on 46th avenue over by Ocean Beach. I smiled when you showed me where we lived, we had sand in the driveway and the best view of the ocean, and my god the sunset was beautiful, almost as beautiful as your smile. I sighed heavily remembering the way your hair fell in your face, leaning back on your hands, your stomach was bare, and your shorts were soaking wet. I remember putting my head in the crook of you neck, as I an arm rested on your stomach, my fingers dancing lightly on your skin. We watched as the sun went down on the west coast, that's the first time you told me you loved me more than anything else in the world, as you kissed the top of my head lightly. I sighed once more, falling back into the couches soft cushions, we had fought again tonight, I wondered why it couldn't go back like it used to be, we used to rarely fight, and when we did, and hour later you'd beckon me back to bed with you. But not nowadays, you'd point to the couch slamming the door, and didn't talk to me for days. You didn't even have a clue that I used to stay up all night waiting for you, you didn't know I refused to use a blanket cause I secretly wished you'd call me back so I could get warm in your arms, and cuddle close to you. You'd just look at an exhausted me and roll your eyes, sometimes I debated if you cared. Now I just get used to you not wanting me to come back, I've gotten used to the couch, but secretly I still wished you'd beg me to come back to bed with you. I closed my eyes as tears began to form.

**DREAM**
You climbed in the car laughing your ass off, your smile as wide as day, and as bright as the sun. We laughed, as we drove to Las Vegas, home sweet home, you were amazed at how bright the lights were remembering and embracing the smell, and the glow of it all. I looked and saw just another bright active town, with a handsome man in the middle. That's all I got fixated on. When you grabbed my wrist you smiled widely, and dragged me into a casino. I laughed, gambling at luck. We spent all of our cash. We laughed as we came out with tons of quarters, you pointed down the street and I followed you. You tossed coins into the poor peoples cans. Smiling as you did so, we began to skip. Until we walked into a laundry mat, I climbed into a cart and you raced through the aisles pushing the cart stopping, blind folding me, I heard you put the quarters in, then you unblended me and leaned on your fore arms against the cart and we watched as the soap and water got tossed around with another object, I didn't know what it was. I looked at you suspiciously. You just smirked deviously. As you stood straight and began to race me around again, making sharp turns, almost tipping me, you left me by the dryers, and went to go get the object you told me not to look, as you put it in. I watched the object tumble round and round, getting dizzy as I watched. You smiled kissing my lips lightly. You handed me a piece of card board and asked me to go stand outside. I smiled, not knowing what you were up to. I looked at the sign as the Las Vegas air filled my lungs. “Change for home…Please.” I smiled I guess we had used it all. I laughed and held up the sign. Getting a couple of dollars, when you came out, you smiled at me holding out a teddy bear that said I love you, in your voice. I looked at you stunned. “Build a bear.” You muttered and kissed me. I loved it, I held it close to my chest hugging it tightly. A couple of hours later, we had enough to get to Long Beach, I laughed only enough for 5 hours and not nine, we couldn't go home, you shrugged not caring. You smiled then whispered in my ear “I'd go anywhere as long as I'm with you.” You kissed me and we climbed in the cab, driving to Long Beach. I yawned slightly, leaning on your shoulders. You ran your fingers through my hair. “Will be there soon love, sleep.” And that's what I did I had fallen asleep on you.
**End of Dream**

I rubbed my eyes, was I in that cab, I looked around to find walls. I sighed still on the couch, still no you. But it seemed so real.

I had a dream last night we
Drove out to see Las Vegas
We lost ourselves in the bright lights
I wish you could have seen us
Begging for change to get home
Or at least San Francisco
Let's put a ten on the high card
And spend a summer on the west coast


I chuckled lightly to myself, and thought about it, had we been to long beach before. I mean I remember going to beaches with you , but not that one. I pulled the teddy bear closer to me, and my teddy had been with me. And that's when I remembered it. It wasn't a dream at all that was the second week we had been in California, you grabbed a map and pen and circled Las Vegas, and told me we're going there then you said if we didn't make it home, we'd go to Long beach. I laughed slightly we never did make it home that night.

Down and to the left
(Here's a map and the pen, the place you pointed at)
Be California's best
(All I ask, all I ask)


I sighed once more, looking at the clock it was 12: 30 am. If I could I'd always dream about my favorite memories with you. The ones were your always leaning up against your arms, sand stuck to your skin, cause you just got done swimming, your hair matted to your face. Your smile wider than ever as I came and sat down next to you, the ocean always smelled better on you, as we sat and watched the sky fill with luscious oranges, victorious reds, soft pinks, and creamy yellows. I closed my eyes, and remembered the yelling, the screaming. I remembered the fight, I remembered the look in your eyes, so full of anger. If this was the end I'm taken these memories, and this sunrise with me hoping you might follow. I opened my eyes, that look you gave me was hateful and scary.

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories


I closed my eyes, I remember rolling around in the sand, making love at the ocean shore, under the sparkling stars. The waves crashing down and the water going around you and I. I looked at our fingers entwined. You said forever and ever. As you curled up in my arms, smiling widely, I chuckled to myself. You hit me lightly as you smirked and asked what I shrugged it off, and you lightly laughed with me till silence consumed us. I opened them as I heard the creak of a door. My heart began to pound in my chest. I slammed my eyes, those were the days the sunsets were brighter, and skies where always an elegant, beautiful blue. I hoped it was you, coming to take me back. Cause I swore to you I wouldn't go back to Georgia unless I had to.

We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
I'll never go back to Georgia
Not at least till I have to


I listened quietly as I pretended I was asleep I heard your foot steps make there way to where I lay. You sat down across from me, I could hear you mutter something incoherent as you sank into the chair. I could picture you sitting there, with your hands folded together. Chin laying on your thumb, supported by your elbows on your knees, as you watched me sleep. I could see you hand slightly rustling your hair, I just couldn't tell you what was on your mind. It was kinda like the time you stared blankly at the map of California wondering where to go.

Down and to the left
(Here's a map and the pen, the place you pointed at)
Be California's best
(All I ask, all I ask)


I opened my eyes, I wanted to see your face but I couldn't, I noticed the light you had flipped the switch to a lamp on the coffee table. Your silhouette illuminated the walls. I watched it softly dance, as you moved, but realized you were coming closer towards me I closed my eyes, pretending I was asleep once again. Hoping, wishing, praying that this wasn't the end. Otherwise I might have to take this California sunrise with me back to Georgia, and I know I'll always wake with the fondest memories of you and I.

And please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories
Memories


I felt your fingers run up and down my arm, and I tried to hold back a shiver, from under your touch. I tried to picture those Bright Vegas lights, to keep my mind off you, but it didn't work, because you were the center of it all, and will always be.

I had a dream last night we
Drove out to see Las Vegas
We lost ourselves in the bright lights


You wrapped your arms around me, as you slowly fit yourself onto the couch, you pulled me closer, and I let you. Turning slightly still playing like I was asleep my head fell into your chest, your brushed the hair from my eyes and kissed the top of my head lightly, my hair sticking to your face as you pulled away, then falling back to were it was. My god was I dreaming.
“I'm Sorry Brendon, I really am, I never meant to hurt you and all I ever wanted was you to stay with me.” He whisper then paused, your hand moved from around me, slightly hitting me in the head. Then went back to were it was as you continued. “I hate dreaming about sunsets with you, it's just not enough, I hate seeing you exhausted, I hate seeing you a wreck. I just, I just wanna be with you for forever. But you gotta understand, it's hard trying to be a man in a gay world.” You whispered.

Please don't tell me that I'm dreaming
When all I ever wanted was to dream another sunset with you
If I roll over when it's over
I'll take this Cali sunrise with me
And wake up with the fondest memories


“I'm sorry I'm not perfect, cause that's all that you deserve. Brendon I hate fighting with you, because it makes every thing seem plain, and dead. You make everything seem to come to life. But Bren,” You stuttered, choking on what had to be tears.
“I understand if you wanna leave and go back to Georgia, just take the Cali Sunrise with you, and I wish you take the fondest of our memories.” You kissed the top of my head lightly and slowly began to leave.

We made love by the ocean
As the waves crashed around you
Sunsets never were so bright
And the skies never so blue
You opened up into my arms
And we laughed as I held you
I'll never go back to Georgia
Not at least till I have to


I stopped you, as my hand wiped away your fresh tears, your eyes opened. Your eyelashes wet from tears. I smiled at you.
“I couldn't ever leave. Not without you, Ryan.” I whispered softly, kissing your lips. I pulled away you looked at me in shock, that I had forgave you so quickly.
“Why.” Was all you could manage, I embraced you with my arms, pulling you closer. When the teddy bear you gave me took the words right out of my mouth. “I love you.” The funny part was you didn't know how long I waited for you to walk out here. You don't know how long I waited to have those arms around me keeping me warm at night, and that I did honestly Love you. I sighed softly at the warmth of laying in your arms, I bared my head in your chest, and whispered.
“Where do you wanna go tomorrow, cause today I just wanna lay here in your arms.” You smiled threw your tear stained cheeks.
Down and to the left. Somewhere”

 

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