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He Told Her To Let Go As He Walked Away
By alyssaa-xo

 


He told her to let go as he walked away. She whispered to herself, “I will never let go, not ever!”

Everyone has a story, some exciting, and full of amazing accomplishments. Mine on the other hand, is terrible. Right from the day I was born I was doomed to be alone my whole life.

My name is Sebastiana, I know you are probably thinking what kind of name is that. Well it is the female form of my father's name, Sebastian. I hate him, just like I hate my mother. I get made fun of by every girl at my school. They all have girly names, and I have about ten different nick names now.

Everyday is the same old thing; I get up and look in the mirror. I hate what I look like. I'm not beautiful or thin like those girls. I'm constantly reminded that I was a mistake, and that I will never be loved like my brother, Antonio. He is smart, good looking, and athletic. I've always been the stupid daughter that my parents like to pretend doesn't exist.

I will never forget the day that my parents told me and Antonio that we were moving to a new house. For me this meant being able to start over, and possibly meeting some friends. I started planning it right then and there. My name was going to be my middle name, which was Francesca. Nobody would know about me wanting to commit suicide numerous times, and running away too many times to count. I will the new girl who everyone will think is super cool and has traveled the world.

The new house was amazing; my room was in the basement, far from the perfect Antonio. They said I could decorate it any way I wanted to, as long as it wasn't going to cause damage. I decided to put up some posters, and put my guitar on the wall. Now I finally had a bedroom where I felt comfortable.

I walked into the big high school for the first time, and that's when I realized that it might be harder than I thought to become friends with these people. Everyone had blonde hair and was wearing either Abercrombie or Hollister. I was wearing a black t-shirt that I bought at West-49, and skinny jeans with a studded belt. So lucky me stood out from the crowd and gained the attention of every single person that I passed on my way to the office.

I was so happy when I got out of the office with my new schedule, and basically ran to my homeroom. I sat down at a desk at the back of the room. That's when I noticed six guys sitting around me in different desks. They all had dark hair, except for one, and they were all wearing black, even the blonde guy.

“Hey, are you new?” one of the guys asked.

“No shit David, she's not blonde or wearing Hollister,” another guy said while hitting him.

“Uhm, hi to you too,” I said while turning back to face the board.

“Do you have a name?” the blonde one asked me.

“Yes, it's uh Francesca.” I said worried that they would hate it.

“Cool stuff, that's a pretty name. Unique too, every name around here is like Ashleigh or Tiffany,” One of the guys said, “Oh and I'm Chuck by the way!”

“Well nice to meet you Chuck,” I laughed, “Is it short form for Charles, by any chance?”

“Mhmm, I hate it.” He laughed.

“Don't, because Francesca isn't my real name either.” I said.

“What do you mean?” Another guy asked, while some girl with blonde hair came and sat down on David's knee.

“Well my name is actually… Sebastiana” I said really quietly.

“SEB, she's got the same name as you!” David said while smacking one guy with really blue eyes on the head, making him wake up.

“Uhm cool. Can I go back to sleep?” he asked.

“Nah, Megan will be here soon. Then you two can flirt with each other, just like you always do,” said the blonde, while David laughed and hugged her, “Oh and hey I'm Alyssa!”

“Nice to meet you,” I said while looking towards the front of the room, noticing a group of blonde girls with one brunette wearing Hollister, and short shorts.

“Oh joy look who it is,” said Alyssa and David at the same time, then they started to laugh like idiots.

The taller girl of the group leaded the rest of them over to the table.

“Oh my god, you like totally must be new to like this school,” she said, “Like my name is totally Josephine!”

“Hi, I'm Tiffany,” said the girl with dirty blonde hair while glancing over at Chuck.

“Like hey girlfriend, my name is like totally Paige,” said a girl with bleached blonde hair with pink highlights.

“My name is Madelyn, what's your name?” said the brunette.

“Sebastiana… Nice to meet you all,” I said.

“Well Sebbbbby, it's okay if I call you that right? Okay, good! Well my name is Ashlee,” she said.

“I guess we saved the best for last,” she laughed at her own joke, “Well my name is Hilary, but I prefer to be called Hil. Why don't you sit with us?”

“I guess, is that okay guys?” I asked Chuck.

Chuck just shook his head while Alyssa started laughing at something David had whispered to her.

“Ew, why are you asking them for their opinions?” Hilary said in a really snobby voice.

I shrugged and got up from my desk. They leaded me over to the other side of the room where I assume is where they always sit because the desks were the only empty ones in the room.

“Soo, Sebby… seen any sexy guys yet?” asked Tiffany.

I just looked at her and replied with, “I haven't been here for even an ten minutes yet…”

“Soooooo, that like doesn't mean you don't find like any of the guys like totally attractive,” said Paige.

“Well I guess I have seen some good looking guys,” I confessed.

“OOOOOH MY GOD, SEBBY! Who is it? We like totally know the 411 on like every guy in the school,” said Josephine.

“Uhh, Chuck…” I blushed.

All the girls gasped, and Tiffany gave me the dirtiest look ever.

“Did I say something wrong?” I asked.

“No, it's just that no girl has shown interest in Chuckles for a while. You should make a move on him,” said Madelyn.

“Why hasn't anybody shown interest in him?” I asked.

“Well for one, he's too involved in his music. And he puts his “bros” before whoever he dates,” said Madelyn.

“Don't worry about it, he probably won't do it again. You should seriously tell him the way you feel,” said Tiffany while looking across the room at him.

“Right now?” I asked.


“DUH!” the whole grouped yelled except Tiffany.

“Okay, jeez I was just asking,” I said while getting up to go sit back down beside Chuck.

“Soo, Chuck!” I said.

“Uhm, hey Sebastiana…” he replied.

“I have something to tell you,” we both said at the same time.

“You go first,” I smiled.

“Well I bet they've already told you about the whole no girl is allowed to like me thing. But I want you to know that, I think I could grow to love you like I once said I loved her but didn't fully mean it…” he said.

“What? No girl is allowed to like you? You loved who? I'm so confused!” I whined.

“Okay, so they didn't tell you. Last year, in the eleventh grade, Tiffany and I liked each other. Every day she told me how much she loved me, and to get her to leave me alone to work on my music, I would tell her I loved her too. After about four and a half months of that, she got bored because I never had time for her. So she decided that she was going to cheat on me in a very sad attempt to get my attention. David was the one who told me that he caught her with my old best friend named Pete, so I broke up with her, and disowned him as a friend. She then threatened to kill any girl who I showed interest in, or any girl who showed interest in me. I bet they told you to come tell me that you like me right? I bet she has it planned that you will become best friends with them, and then she will disown you like I disowned Pete,” he said,

“Oh… I actually didn't know any of this…” I said.

“Didn't you notice how she kept looking at me when they were introducing themselves?” he asked.

“A little bit yes, but I didn't think anything of it. I just figured that she had a crush on you…” I told him.

“It's beyond a crush now, it's become a game for her. She wants me back so bad that anyone who gets in the way of her and I possibly getting back together she takes out of the game,” he complained, “You have no clue how many girls I have lost because of her.”

“They weren't the right girl for you then!” I said.

“Why's that? They seemed perfect, until she got in the way,” he asked.

“If they really cared about you, they wouldn't care what Tiffany thinks or what she could possibly do…” I smiled.

“I bet you wouldn't be any different than the rest…” he said while looking away.

“Hey, you better not ever repeat that. I'll prove you wrong, she can bring it on. I won't ever give up on liking you,” I smiled.

“So… does that mean you will be my girlfriend?” he smiled back.

“Yes, of course it does Chuck!” I giggled.

The next few months were perfect, I bounced between being good friends with Tiffany and crew, and Chuck, the guys, and their girlfriends. For the first time in my life, it seemed amazing. I had people who cared about me, and an amazing boyfriend who loved me to pieces. I had great grades in all my classes, and I didn't go home every night until my curfew so I didn't have to see my family who only causes me misery. Chuck and I even went on a mini vacation for a weekend to Ottawa. Sure it's nothing special, but we made the best of it. I helped him write songs for his band with the guys, and he was teaching me how to play the drums.

I was starting to get nervous, the girls were talking to me less and less everyday. Tiffany had started treating me completely different, and our friendship was suffering. The only one in the group who would actually talk to me on a regular basis was Madelyn, but I wasn't 100% sure if I could trust that she wasn't feeding everything I'd say to Tiffany, so I didn't say much to her. David and his girlfriend Alyssa broke up, nobody was exactly sure why, but we all know that it had to do with the band in some way. Jeff had started dating Ashlee, but everybody thought it was just a joke, becuase they broke up after two weeks. I dyed my hair a dirty blonde, so help me fit in with the mass population of the school. Chuck had said it was cute, but I know he was really thinking that I was just another Tiffany clone because it was the same colour as her hair.

One day in class, I was sitting with Hilary and Madelyn when Hilary said, “Well Sebby, I hope you and Chuck are happy together… because it'll soon end when Tiffany finally wins him back!”

“HILARY, ARE YOU FUCKING STUPID!?!” Madelyn yelled, and the whole class looked at our table.

“Miss Theodore, please watch your mouth,” the teacher said then went back to writing on the chalk board.

“Sorry,” she replied, then got up and moved seats.

I was sitting all alone in my science class. Every girl in the class kept looking over at me and giving me weird looks. This was the same kind of look that I had received at my old school. For the first time in a while, I felt alone. After school that night I went over to Pierre's with the guys and their girlfriends. The guys practiced while us the girls, talked about cool concerts coming up. These girls were truly perfect for their boyfriends in their own way. Alyssa and David were both very random and constantly making people laugh, even if it was a really bad joke we were laughing at. Megan and Seb are both quiet at times, but very sweet and caring, and know when it is the right time for fun, and when you need to be serious. Hayley and Pierre both have an inspiring love for singing, and are very nice. The rest of the guys didn't have girlfriends but I know someday they will meet the perfect girl for them.

“Hey Sebby…” Chuck said while walking into the room.

“Hey baby!” I said while jumping up to hug him.

“Seb and Patrick are going to do an episode of their radio show called Man of the Hour, so we are allowed to go now if you want,” he said.

“Okay, I'll see you ladies tomorrow at school,” I said while grabbing Chuck's hand and saying goodbye to everyone.

“Bye Sebbbbbbbbbbbyy!” Alyssa yelled.

The rest of the night Chuck and I watched movies and talked. It was nice to spend time alone with him for once. Then the topic of Tiffany came up. It ended up with me leaving, and crying. When I got home, my stupid brother Antonio was laughing at me and told me some hot blonde came looking for me. My mother then told me she said her name was Tiffany. I told my mother that if Tiffany ever comes to our house again, the police will be called.

Before I went to bed, I wrote in my diary for the first time since I moved here. “I hate Tiffany. She took away my friends, my idiotic family, and she was starting to win Chuck back. Her stupid blonde hair, and stupid blue eyes, why does every guy have to fall for her? She's not really all that pretty. Any girl can wear a Hollister shirt, and look great. I hate her so much it's strange I've always hated my brother, but it was never a hate like this. On top of hating her, I also hate Madelyn, Josephine, Paige, Ashlee, and Hilary. They are all Tiffany clones, I should have known before I started to trust them. Me and Madelyn were really becoming good friends, but I now know the truth. Everything seems to suck right now. Chuck and I got into a huge fight. He brought up how when him and Tiffany were dating, they made out every second they could, and he wanted to know why we weren't like that. I yelled at him and told him I'm not fucking Tiffany, and I never will be. I hope things start to turn around, I don't know how much more I can handle.”

I woke up with tear stains on my face. I washed them off, reapplied my makeup, and left for school. Usually I walk to Chuck's first, but today, I decided to skip that. I got to the horrid high school, and went to my locker. I passed Madelyn and her new boyfriend in the hall way, she tried to say something to me, but I stuck up the middle finger at her and told her to fuck off. When I got to my locker, I saw a note. It just told me to meet Chuck on the track at lunch. It wasn't in his writing, but it did match Jeff's. Jeff was always the guy who would help anyone with their problems, I thank god for him, and he's an amazing friend to have.


My first two classes were torture. Chuck ignored me in homeroom. He spent the whole class talking to Jeff. I sat alone on the other side of the room. Tiffany and her whores sat freakishly close to Chuck today. At lunch I walked out the back doors, and sat in the middle of the soccer field. I soon saw Jeff, Chuck, and the rest of the guys walk out of the doors. I started to cry thinking that Chuck was about to break up with me. My first real boyfriend, was about to break up with me, and I knew exactly why he was going to do it too.

“Hey…” Chuck said while looking at his feet.

“Hi,” I said while looking up at him while more tears filled my eyes.

“Don't cry, you know I hate it when you cry,” he said.

“Well… You are going to break up with me, so I might as well be prepared to cry…” I looked away to see Tiffany and the whores sitting at the top of the hill.

“Who said that?” Jeff asked.

“Well it's obvious, Chuck and I haven't spent a day apart since I came to the school. Why all of a sudden does he just start ignoring me?” I asked.

“I'm not going to break up with you…” Chuck said while looking towards Tiffany, who he just noticed on the hill.

“Pfft. Of course they are here, they just want to see my life crumble from underneath my feet.” I said.

Pierre and Seb then left to go talk to them. Patrick soon followed after he saw that the girls left. They all went inside the school, I assume to find their girlfriends. Eventually Jeff, Chuck and I went into the school, but I left them to go into the washroom to wash up my face. Tiffany was in the washrooms too. I walked over to the mirror to wash off my tear stains, and that's when she punched me in the face. I hit the floor hard, and everyone in the washrooms took off. I was sitting there with blood dripping off my face onto the floor and my clothes.

“That's what you fucking deserve you whore!” she yelled.

“What did I do?” I cried.

“You know what you did. The whole school knows what you did. Don't play dumb Sebastiana, I know you better than that.” she yelled.

Soon the principal, Chuck, Jeff, and Patrick were all in the washrooms. The principal took Tiffany away, but I later got called down. Tiffany had said that she punched me out of self defense, and that I started the fight.

That night Chuck called me saying he was going to come over in an hour. I spent the next hour getting ready. I was nervous about what my parents would think about Chuck, and what my brother would say to him.

“Sebastiana, some boys at the door.” Antonio yelled.

“Send him down,” I yelled back.

“Hey Chuck,” I said really excited to see him.

“Uhm, hi.” he said quietly.


After a few minutes of silence he finally said, “Tiffany told me what really happened…”

“That she punched me because I'm dating you?” I asked.

“Will you quit lying? I know that's not what happened, you hate Tiffany, so it only makes sense that you went to hurt her, but she punched you,” he said.

“Once again, you believe her over me,” I started crying.

“It's only because you've been lying to me since the day we met!” he yelled.

“What the fuck? I have never lied to you Charles,” I cried even harder.

“Tiffany has been telling me everything that you have told them about yourself… and it doesn't match anything you have told me and the guys,” he said.

“Like what?” I asked him.

“It's not important Sebastiana. I just came over here to tell you that I think we should break up, it's just not working out anymore,” he said and it looked like he had a couple tears in his eyes.

“What happened to you wanted to marry me someday Charles?” I looked up at him with my teary eyes.

“I'm sorry but you just aren't who I thought you were,” he said while heading towards the door.

I spent the rest of the night crying instead of finishing my English homework. At around ten o'clock Alyssa and Megan came over.

“We heard the news…” Megan said while giving me a hug.

“I bet everyone has, hoe face slut whore bitch has probably told everyone how excited to have her little Chuckles back in her arms,” I said.

They both started laughing.

“Sebby, that's the most amazing thing I've heard all day! Tiffany's a huge slut, and the only person who doesn't know that is Chuck,” Alyssa said while still laughing.

“Yeah, for some reason he seems to believe her over any one. That's why we started fighting, but I never thought that it would end this way,” I cried.

“Aw, sweetie don't cry. Chuck probably didn't tell you the whole story about what happened with Tiffany,” Megan said.

“She cheated on him? That's all he told me,” I said while whipping tears from my eyes.

“Not just that. Tiffany had Chuck's baby. They were inseparable, and once she had the baby he started distancing himself from her to write music for the band. Then she started to get fed up with Chuck and the band, so she cheated on him with Pete. Then they decided it was best to put the kid up for adoption and go separate ways,” Alyssa told me.

We sat and talked for a couple hours then my parents said it was getting late so they had to leave. They made me promise them that I would go to school tomorrow.

I woke up in the morning the same way I used to. I looked in the mirror, and started crying remembering that I was still wearing the necklace Chuck gave me. It felt like the necklace was burning a whole through me. I dried my tears and put on eyeliner and some grey eye shadow. I put my hair in a pony tail, and brushed my teeth.


I was going to be late for school, but my mom offered to give me a ride for the first time in my life. At first in the car it was awkward, but after we started talking it wasn't too bad.

“Why all of a sudden have you decided to acknowledge me?” I asked her.

“I heard the way you were crying last night, that's the same way I cried the first time your father cheated on me and told me that I wasn't allowed to love my daughter,” she started to cry.

“Really, he did all that?” I asked

“Yeah, you were around two. He brought home so many different girls; he said he never wanted us. When Antonio was born, he stopped bringing girls home, and he raised him all on his own while I worked. I didn't want to be stuck having him support me, or you for that matter, so I got a job just incase he decided to leave for good,” she said proudly.

We got to the school, and my mom gave me some money for lunch and to take a bus home. I ran to my homeroom class trying to avoid Chuck in the halls but lucky me got to the class at the same time as him. He went to talk to Tiffany and her friends while I went to sit with Alyssa, Megan, and the guys. Chuck eventually came and sat with the crew after the bell rang. I heard him talking to Jeff about not wanting to break up with me but if he didn't Tiffany threatened to kill me.

At lunch I was with Alyssa and Chuck walked over and asked, “Why aren't you talking to me?”

“I got the impression you didn't want me to talk to you anymore,” I answered while trying to walk away.

He just stood there and watched me walk away while looking at Alyssa wondering what to do. She just walked away too while calling him an idiot.

After school I went home and signed on to MSN, I changed my name to Sebastiana (U). I got an instant message from Chuck.

Chuck says:

Hey, what's up?

Sebastiana (U) says:

Hi, not much on my mom's laptop.

Chuck says:

Lol, that sucks.

Sebastiana (U) says:

I'll be right back, my mom has cheesies for me.

Chuck says:

Someone wants you to get fat.

Sebastiana (U) says:

No, cheesies are my chocolate. They comfort me in times of pain.

Chuck says:

What? Sorry I'm really lost. What's wrong?

Chuck says:
Never mind.

Sebastiana (U) says:

Did you forget or something?

Chuck says:

I'm not all here, kinda having a blonde moment.

Sebastiana (U) says:
Mhmm, good for you. I should go get my phone off the floor.

Chuck says:

Why?

Sebastiana (U) says:

I threw it at the wall.

Chuck says:

Good thing I wasn't there or else it would have been aimed at me. LOL.

Sebastiana (U) says:

No…

Chuck says:

Well at least you know the phone is durable.

Sebastiana (U) says:

Yeah…

Chuck says:
I'm sorry, if it means anything.

Sebastiana (U) says:

Not really.

Chuck says:

Thought so.

Sebastiana (U) says:

I still feel like shit, I'll be right back I'm gonna get my phone.

Chuck says:

I still like you a lot.... My dad said that if I don't break up with you he will take me out of drum lessons and not buy me new drums.

Sebastiana (U) says:

Nice to know that drumming means more than I do.

Chuck says:

No, but I can't afford drums on my own. But I have to go. Don't get any ideas into your head, and don't listen to Tiffany. She's saying it's because I like her. That's 100% not true, because I still like you. (L)

Chuck signed out.

I listened to music for a couple hours then I decided to go to bed.

For a couple of months things seemed fine, then he started dating Josephine and stopped talking to me. We got in a couple major fights, and he told me to get the fuck of out his life. I tried that for a while, but it was really hard. He got another new girlfriend who doesn't go to our school. Eventually I tried to apologize for all the times I bitched at him, and he told me to go fuck myself.

One day Megan and Seb threw a party for their one year, and Chuck was invited too. We didn't really talk until after Josephine left.

He walked over to me and said, “I really want you to get the fuck outta my life.”

“What did I do?” I asked.

“You could easily just go kill yourself, and leave me and my friends alone,” he said.

Chuck told me to let go as he walked away.

I whispered to myself, “I will never let go, not ever!”

It was the last day at school, and Madelyn decided to talk to me, “Hey, Sebby. How have you been? Your makeup is getting really heavy, but it looks cute!”

“Uhm, I'm fine. Thanks, but where the hell have you been?” I asked.

“Trying to tell Chuck that you two should still be friends,” she said.

“It won't work, I've tried apologizing,” I said.

“Do you miss him?” she asked.

I just walked away because I hate hearing this question, and I whispered to myself, “More anyone will ever understand.”

That night I went home and decided what I must do. I went into the bathroom, and slit my throat and arms. While I was bleeding so hard, and I knew that I was about to die I wrote letters to all the people I was leaving behind.

Dear Mom,

I'm sorry, I'm not as strong as you. I tried so hard to get over the pain, but it just didn't work. I'll look out for you from heaven.

Dear Chuck,

I really wanted things to work out between us. I miss you more than you will ever be able to understand because you never took the time to listen to me. I was so sick of all the fighting that I had no clue what to do, this was my last resort. I guess you probably won't care, but I'm still sorry for all the times I bitched out at you. Please don't hate me even more than you already do, I just wanted the pain to finally end. You never wanted me, I now realize that.

Dear everyone else,
Thank you for being amazing friends, I just have to leave you all. I just can't handle the pain anymore. I'll look out for you all, and I'll miss you so much.

(GENERAL POV)

The next morning her mother went downstairs to wake Sebastiana up for school. She found her daughter lying dead on her bathroom floor in a puddle of blood. Instantly she fell to the floor and started bawling.

When Chuck, Alyssa, Megan, and the guys didn't see her at school they all decided to skip second period to find out where she was. When they got to her house, they all started crying.

“I knew that I shouldn't have let Tiffany control me again,” Chuck started to cry.

“Mhmm,” Everyone replied.

“I'm such an idiot, if I never listened to her and broke up with Sebastiana, she would still be here today,” he bawled.

 

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