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Animal I Have Become
By i'm not the last but i sure ain't the first

 


Animal I Have Become

The animal is making me like this. I'm happy that I did that to them. I don't feel a bit of remorse. I'm in an everlasting hell, and I'm still mad. Still livid. Still angry at all of them. Still wanting to hurt them more. But I wanted it to stop. Wanted this animal to go away.

I can't escape this hell

So many times I've tried

But I'm still caged inside

I can't control this anymore. The animal is taking over me. I wanted this nightmare to go away.

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

My friends and family are in the worst pain of their life. And I'm enjoying every minute of it. And I don't want to. I just need somebody to help me through this. But I can't trust anybody anymore. Not after what I did. I need to find that somebody that can help me tame this animal that I have become.

So what if you can see

The darkest side of me

No one can ever change

This animal I have become

Help me believe

It's not the real me

Somebody help me tame this animal

Then, I found Seb. He was the sweetest guy ever. But I knew I couldn't trust him with the secrets that I hold. I couldn't trust anybody because then I knew, once he told someone else, that the animal would be unleashed once again.

I can't escape myself

So many times I've lied

But there's still rage inside

Me and Seb always talked. We shared everything. Except for what I did. I could never tell him that. But otherwise, he was the greatest thing and I thought I was falling for him. Just like I fell for Benji. And I knew I couldn't because when I fell for Benji and he rejected me, that was the first time that the animal was unleashed.

Somebody get me through this nightmare

I can't control myself

That first time that Seb and I kissed, I knew I had to get away. I couldn't hurt him with the animal. That would kill him more then me just walking away. So that's what I did. I walked away from him. From his life. Forever.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one would ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal

It killed him. It killed me. We were both dead inside. I still remember that last conversation we had.

“Seb, I can't do this.”

“Dan, why not? I need you.”

“If we stay together then-“
“Then what Danni? What will happen? I love you, Danni.”

“YOU CAN'T LOVE ME!”

“WHY NOT? WHAT IS WRONG WITH YOU?”

“The animal will get you. And I can't let that happen.” And then I left. Forever.

Somebody help me through this nightmare
I can't control myself
Somebody wake me from this night
mare
I can't escape this hell

As I lay on my bed this horrible night, I realize something. The animal, it was never there with Seb until that night. And after he was out of my life, the animal kept coming back. The animal was gone when he was there. And I threw it away. I run out of my house and down the street to his in the pouring rain. It has been a week since I said those horrible things, and I needed to tell Seb everything. Why I said those things. Why I did this. What I did to the people I loved.

(This animal, this animal, this animal, this animal, this animal...)

I knock on his door. “Seb? Please open your door. I need to talk to you.” He opens the door and lets me in.

“What do you want Danni?” he says.

“To tell you everything,” I reply. So I do. I tell him everything. I tell him that I loved him and didn't mean any of those things I said. I just said them because I didn't want him to see my dark side when we fought. I told him that I had killed my father. I told him that it had ripped my family apart and that nobody even knew it was me that did it. Everybody thinks that he was on crank and he had had a heart attack. Nobody knew that it was me that gave him the crank. Slipped it into his drink. It killed him within 10 minutes. I told him about the animal and how it makes me do things. That it controls me. I felt so good after telling him those things. He was a very good listener and never said a word throughout my whole story. When I was done I cried into his shirt. He told me everything was going to be okay and that he loved me. And I believed him. I told him that the animal would never leave me and that he would have to understand. He said that that was okay. The animal was a part of me, and I would never be able to let it go.

So what if you can see the darkest side of me?
No one will ever change this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal I have become
Help me believe it's not the real me
Somebody help me tame this animal
(This animal I have become)

 

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