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Your Smile Touches Every Thing I've Ever Wanted To Be
By Giovanna

 


Dear Diary, 12th March 2007

I only joined Panic! At The Disco because you were in it.

Direct quote from my ex best friend Brendon, who I had a brief fling with and who I still very much likely fancy. Whether it's his perfectly straightened hair, his adorable fashion sense or the way he embarrasses you by acting like a five year old on crack but still you manage to enjoy yourself, I wouldn't have a clue. But what ever it is, it makes me wish I never broke up with him.

I guess it could be the fact that when I met him he was so innocent and shy. A boy who sucked at school work but was amazing with any instrument you gave him. Now he's a tainted soul with much bad boy appeal. Even though he's still embarrassing he should be my embarrassment and I'd be proud.

It's safe to say I love Brendon Boyd Urie.

When I liked him he still wore glasses most of the time and didn't have much care for sex appeal. He seemed shy and looked purely innocent. Now he's a loud trouble maker and a girl heart breaker.

He told me, once, he loved me. Well technically it was for a whole week. Every time he said those three words my heart would stop. All meaning of life was lost as I looked into his eyes as he said it. I could tell he meant it.

My most fond memory of us is sitting by a bon fire at one of Pete's many parties for us. Me sitting on his lap, a warm blanket over us, my lips kissing his innocent skin as my head lay in his neck. So perfect so calm, the most peaceful I'd been in my life.

But I had to go mess it up. Me being the impulsive guy that I am threw it away for a cocky fool of a gold digger girl. I threw happiness away for `true love'.

Few months on and my beautiful angel of happiness has a girlfriend. I assume they mean a lot to one another since they've been going for nearly four months. It's her who tainted him, made him into what he is today. His skin isn't innocent, nor is his mouth.

He's not mine, but the question is: Will he ever be?

I don't want to tell him I still like him as I feel I might be seen as a conceded arrogant bastard, direct quote from Spencer that is. I didn't want him before, what's different now? Well I'll tell you the difference. The difference is that I need something positive in my life right now, and looking back he seems to bring some light into my life, he can make me smile. And right now that's all that matters, that's good enough for me.

I wrote that quote because it shocked me when he said it today. It shocked me into a blissful smile. Why would some one do that for me? Why join a band of people you don't even know just for one person? I'm sure we would have met some other way if he stuck with Brent long enough. And why would he say something like that to me when it happened so long ago. He's now part of this band whether he likes it or not. Why bring something up that didn't need to be? To me that quote means gold!

As much as twisted and sad as this soppy love story might sound, for me it's a burning reality. It's a realization that I screwed up big time. There is no going back. I've lost someone so special all because of a moment of pure impulse.

Signing off, a one unhappy Ryan Ross xxx

This was dedicated to Hidden_pictures, you wanted a dedication so here it is. Hope you enjoyed it bella. This is actually a page out of an exercise book I have, whether you want to call it a diary entry I'll leave that to you. This is a true story about some one who was important in my life. Just change the `cocky fool of a gold digger girl' into `cocky fool of a gold digger boy'. This story is about a boy friend I had and dumped because I thought I was in `love'. The quote he told me a few days ago (three to be exact) was `I only liked Panic! At The Disco because you liked them” He said it to me as we were just talking in a group of friends about them. I don't think he saw my mouth drop after he said it. But any way hope you all liked it. Much love and respect xxx

 

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