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Release
By "Kiku"

 

Release

Another sandbag is thrust into my hands. Wordlessly, I pass it on to the next villager in the long line. Desperately, the village is trying to block the raging flow of water that threatens to over whelm us. Dimly, I can hear the shouts of the leaders who are tirelessly trying to push us on, to encourage us so that we do not despair, and to keep us going despite the incredible odds.

It is too late for me. I have already given up. As the unending train of sandbags crosses my path, being hastily handed from hand to hand, arm to arm, I cannot help but run the scene over and over again in my head. I can feel the shock and surprise, mixed with a little bit of anger sweeping over me as he kissed me. My stomach clenches again at the very memory. And, Suzaku, I can see his face as he looked upon us, the pain so terribly evident.

He didn't speak then, but walked away, the little gift he had brought for me silently slipping from his hand. He was always so terribly kind to me.

He did not speak to me that day, or even that night-not until the next day. I could not find out where he was-I was barely able to speak without crying.

I hit Hikou that day-Hikou, my friend since childhood-for what he'd done to me that day, for what he'd done to all of us. He'd destroyed everything, nothing would ever be the same again. How could I face dear Houjun now, after what had happened.

I do not know if Hikou had seen him that day or if they'd talked. Perhaps I did not seek him out because I didn't know what to say. Some part of me blamed myself for what had happened; perhaps I had seen it coming and had not stopped it. That voice, that annoying, painful voice reminds me of that now.

Distantly, I hear the shouts grow louder, and as I emerge from my recollections somewhat, I can vaguely make out people running past me, some calling for me to run with them. I do not.

I stand here, frozen, halted by thoughts and feelings I cannot escape. Tears run down my face, mixing with the rain that is pelting down on me. I shake with cold and wrenching emotion; my stomach clenches even tighter and I think I am going to be sick.

I can see myself huddled in the corner, him standing behind me, not knowing what to say. I sob uncontrollably, trying desperate to form an apology that I know can never be sufficient. I tell him that I cannot marry him. He does not wait to hear my reason.

I am no longer worthy of him.

Aimlessly, I wander, not caring where I go. The fields are deserted, the people have fled. I walk alone among the rain-swept bushes, some almost uprooted by the floodwaters. The ground is muddy, and my feet drag along, it growing more and more difficult to find the strength to move them.

Somewhere a little ways away, I can hear the sounds of fighting. I wonder who it is.

I stop before the river. I stare into its murky depths and lose myself in them. Its icy waters are black with the flood and its swirling depths are unfathomable. Inexplicably I feel myself drawn toward it. Its intensely strong current is pulling me toward it and I stand upon its banks, staring down into the water, cold spray hitting my face.

I feel myself falling forward, pushed by the wind, pulled by the water, and I am hard-pressed to resist it. Fresh tears stain my face, but are almost unnoticeable between the heavy rain and the spray from the river. I cannot forgive myself, no matter what I think, so why should he? I have betrayed him, hurt him, he who has never hurt me nor anyone I can ever think of. I love him, yet I allowed myself to be kissed by another, just as we were to be married.

The image of the river fades and instead I can see myself beneath the raging waters. Suddenly the river looks so calm and peaceful. The roar of the water has diminished and a strange sense of calm overcomes me as I gaze into its black depths. I could go there, safe from myself and the guilt that I must face. I could wait for him there.

I fall into the sweeping current. The icy water surrounds me instantly, drawing me beneath its surface. I am immediately wet, soaked to the bone, and the cold begins to sink into my body. I feel numb all over, and soon I feel nothing at all.

The water is so dark, not like it has been whenever I've been in it. Yet dimly, I can see a shadowed figure just before me. The currents have carried along so many things, yet I see this one so clearly.

Joyfully, I take his hand, and somehow all is forgiven. In death, we shall wait for him, our dear Houjun, and once his destiny is done, we shall all be together again.

Owari no da ^_-

Back to no da.

Back to the no da.

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These fanfics are ?1998, Kichiri, the Temple of the Blue Dragon. Please do not use them without her express permission or she'll be forced to use her razor fans on you, or something even worse (Miaka sings, you know...) no da.
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